I think I need to focus on who I am and want to be. I am going to be 40 this October - which is making me re-evaluate all of life. I feel like I have lost some of who I am over the years - just by letting life happen and not living with intention. I was to live my full authentic self (and all that can mean) and not care about what anyone else thinks about it. I know that it my sound a little shallow - but I want to be happy. Happy with myself, my clothes, my hair, my work, in love, in friendships and the list goes on. I need & desire to be complete in my body, mind and spirit. I think it is so easy to get into the routine of life & have a wellspring of authentic thoughts/feelings/desires hidden down deep below the surface of (the everyday routine of) life. I think the only way to tap into that hidden wellspring is by having time to think and get brutally honest with oneself. And that is exactly what I want to do this year.
It will require time alone - which is challenging in itself when all the many roles I fill (wife, sister, dtr., boss, coworker, friend, etc.) are screaming for my attention - but I need to make time. I don't want to be someone who wakes up living a life that just happened to me - I want to live on purpose and with purpose. So, on the journal pages ahead, I will be exploring all that I am - the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful - and all that it means for my life journey. Some days, I might be focused on a particular trait, feeling or characteristic but I know there will also be days when my thoughts are all over the place. And I am totally ok with that! It is all a part of the process / journey for this next year. So, here's to FOCUS in 'Fourteen....and to living live with purposeful intention!
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